Unfortunately, I feel the need to defend myself

I'm a little confused right now. I'm not sure why some guys over at SB Nation feel the need to make fun of me in their articles. There have been two different writers on the site this past week that have linked to my site in their articles and on one twitter account and referred to me as obsessive and a stalker.

First of all, this is a fan site. There are thousands of fan sites out there for thousands of athletes. I'm not sure why mine has been singled out. I have a male friend who had a Mark Grace fan site when he was in high school. Did that make him obsessive or a stalker?

I became a fan of José this past summer (before I even saw a photo) when I read the story of why he was a candidate for the Masterton Trophy. That story really struck a chord with me, and when I saw the Awards show and how he handled everything, it just solidified my admiration.

And yes, I think that he's a good-looking guy. So I make comments about that sometimes, as many women do about men they find attractive. But that's not why I'm a fan, and it's all in fun.

I don't feel that admiration is creepy or weird as these guys try to make it seem, and I'm certainly not a stalker. Do these guys even know what that means? That's a horrible thing to say about someone.

Everything on my sites is written in good fun. It's tongue-in-cheek. I don't actually want to be with José in any real sense. I'm a happily married woman and my husband is aware of me being a José fan. He doesn't have a problem with it, so I don't know why these guys do.

When I became a José fan, I had trouble finding information on the internet about him. Everything I found was about Paris Hilton, Propecia, or his family's legal troubles. The fan sites that I'm sure were out there during his heyday in Montreal had fallen by the wayside (or maybe I couldn't find them because they were in French.) Either way, I thought it would be nice to have a place on the internet where other José fans could go to find articles, facts, interviews, video highlights, etc. in one place. I don't think this makes me obsessive. When I find something I find interesting and think someone else might find interesting, then I post it. I don't spend every waking hour thinking about José or writing about him or posting about him.

I'm really aggravated that I even feel like I have to defend myself. I don't think I'm the one being silly here. But I do feel the need to defend myself, so I have.

I made a conscious decision to not post anything back to the two writers that did this. I'm not even going to post their names. But if they read this or if someone tells them about it, because I can see I'm getting traffic from their articles, then I would hope they would realize what they've done is hurtful and mean.

My sites are for fun. I don't write anything in them that I would be embarrassed for José to read himself. I think the guy is aware that some women find him attractive. I don't think that's a shocker to him.

I would simply ask that these sports writers would just write their articles and leave me out of it. I don't know what I possibly could have done to piss them off so badly that they felt the need to try to embarrass me.

By the way, I'm not embarrassed, because I don't feel my sites are untoward. What I am is angry.